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[27 Dec 2004|11:02pm]
Just in case anyone still reads this, and is interested, my dog Brandy (the one with cancer in her lymph nodes) died this afternoon. The cancer spread to her brain, so the vet put her to sleep.

We'll miss her.

Journal officially closed.
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[29 Mar 2004|03:31am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

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[19 Feb 2004|02:59pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

I miss theatre. I really, really, really miss theatre. It's slowly been torturing me ever since I saw Just So. Given, that show completely sucked (no offense, guys), but that wasn't the point. The point is, I miss being on stage. I miss having lines to memorize. I miss not having a clue what my blocking is and making it up as I go along, only to find that on the night of the show I actually do know where I'm supposed to be standing. I miss being measured for costumes, only to find that when they come in they don't fit right. I miss breaking dishes with Kylie. I miss "pouring" cottage cheese on Jason. I miss everything about the Nerd. I miss being afraid to go up the stairs on the Rumors set. I miss joking with the techies. Hell, I miss being a techie. I miss taking notes during the Once On This Island rehearsals. I even miss the Crucible and Ballyhoo. I miss cutting out all those damn School House Rock Live props. I miss auditions. I miss messing up at my auditions. I miss my friends. I miss having a perfectly logical reason for wearing all black, other than "I like the color." I even miss Thacker (Santanello...whatever she's going by now) lecturing us while we all roll our eyes and only listen to about half of what she says.

I miss everything about it.

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It worked last time... [01 Feb 2004|01:36am]
Alright, last time I posted this, I got 2 people, so I'm curious to see if it will work again.

I need more LJ friends. Almost all of my entires are Friends Only, so it only looks like I rarely update. So tell your friends to leave me a comment, and then they(you)'ll be added.
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[27 Jan 2004|02:05pm]
Where do I go to get a money order? (I got one once before, but that was over a year ago, and I don't remember where I got it.)
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[18 Jan 2004|01:26pm]
I need more LJ friends. Anyone interested?
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The random amusements at my family dinners [08 Jan 2004|06:43pm]
[ mood | amused ]

My mom, Ari, Matt and I are sitting at the table having dinner. Ari is running his mouth about God knows what. Basically, it was the exact opposite of intelligent conversation.

ME: (to my mom) "After I finish this bite, I'm going back to my room before my IQ lowers itself even more."
My mom stifles a laugh, and Matt smiles. Ari looks at me, confused.
ARI: "Why would your IQ lower?"
MATT: (to me) "Point proven."

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[24 Dec 2003|03:34am]
[ mood | bored ]

Here's a fun little exercise. Fill it out! Come on, you know I'd do it for you.Collapse )

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[18 Dec 2003|02:17am]
Yeah, so since the majority of my posts are friends only anyway, I figured I might as well just go ahead and make the entire thing friends only. So if you want in on it, leave a comment (any comment, it doesn't just have to be "Add me!"). And I want more friends, so tell your friends to leave me a comment, too. :)
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QUOTE OF THE DAY [16 Dec 2003|12:25am]
[ mood | giggly ]

Between my mom and my twelve-year-old half-brother, who's half Jewish.

MOM: "Ari, are you the only Jewish kid in your school?"
ARI: "No."
MOM: "Who are the others?"
ARI: "I don't know, Mom, we don't have a Jewish Club or anything."

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QUOTE OF THE DAY (This one's better, I swear) [11 Dec 2003|12:35am]
MIKE: "They're building a church across the street. 'Life Community Church.' What the hell is that?"
ASHLEY: "I don't know, but I don't think you're supposed to use 'church' and 'hell' in the same breath."
MIKE: "No, it's not built yet. That voids it. That's not holy ground, that's Home Depot."
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[10 Dec 2003|02:33pm]
[ mood | rushed ]

Give it up, get it on, or get out.Collapse )

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QUOTE OF THE DAY [09 Dec 2003|01:45am]
(This was actually said yesterday, but as Amanda pointed out, I'm going to hell for the one I posted, and this one's a lot less mean.)

These are two girls that I work with who were joking with each other.

Megan: "What are you complaining about now, Amanda?"
Amanda: "None of your business, Megan. It wasn't about you, though, because not everyone is always talking about you."
Megan: "Sure they are. I'm cool."
Amanda: "Yeah, cool like...ice!"
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Quote of the Day (or should I say, Image?) [07 Dec 2003|11:32pm]
Me: "Oh my God, you would not believe this girl who came into the store today. She was a midget on crutches with an eye patch. I think she was retarded, too."
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QUOTE OF THE DAY [02 Dec 2003|12:56pm]
[ mood | amused ]

On cabs (for amps).

Alyssa (G.): Yesterday I asked my friend Tom who's been in bands, is friends with all our friends in bands, & obviously knows what a cab is, how much he thought a good one would be, &he was like "depends how far you're going". I was like, yes thank you JACKASS.

Who are your Celebrity Parents? by opp_girl_4_tp
Your Name
Your MomNicole Kidman
Your DadJohnny Depp
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[30 Nov 2003|12:09am]
I have a new screen name. If I didn't tell you about it, it's for one of three reasons:
1) I forgot (which is probably the most likely reason)
2) I didn't think you'd want it
3) I'm still going to use the Azure one the majority of the time, so I didn't even bother.
If you do want it, however, leave me a comment or send an e-mail, and I'll tell you what it is. Like I said, I'm rarely going to use it, it's just a back up (I have my reasons, and no, I don't want to share them). I may eventually switch to that name full-time, but I don't think I will. So yeah, lemme know if you want it.
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[28 Nov 2003|07:42pm]
[ mood | irritated ]

I swear, my dogs are the fucking Mod Squad. They may appear to be stupid, but by God, when they want something they GET it. I bought come cookies the other day, stashed them in a bag, tied the bag, put them on top of a box that's on my "deesser", and threw a bunch of clothes under it and on top if it. They stayed there for two days, and the dogs never even knew. But then this morning I couldn
t find my apron for work, so while digging for it, I guess I accidently moved something, because when I got home from work, my cookies (and a box of cupcakes I'd forgotten that I'd also bought) were chewed up and all over my "room." Actually, right now the cupcakes are MIA. I'm assuming in the backyard, but it's like 50 below zero, so I'm not about to go check. But the cookie box in in four or five pieces on the floor next to me. Bastards.

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[27 Nov 2003|02:15pm]
What do people really think about you? by Raven319
favorite song
Parents thinkYou're too sensitive
Strangers thinkYou're hot
Friends thinkYou're wonderful
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[27 Nov 2003|12:38pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Amusing things I forgot to mention.Collapse )

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[26 Nov 2003|06:06pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

So lately, been wonderin'...Collapse )

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[19 Nov 2003|04:02pm]
[ mood | awake ]

God, I hate working. Off today and tomorrow. Thank God, too, because last night, Mike and I went to the Steak n Shake at Easton to meet Blake at 10, and I didn't walk into my house until about 8:10. Yeah, we sat at SNS for NINE HOURS. Why? Poker. Seven cards, five cards, stud, draw, and Texas hold 'em. That one took te longest. We did that one for about four hours. The first two hours we played Egyptian Ratscrew, which I'm normally very good at, but Blake kicked my ass and Mike's. Not once, not twice, but THIRTEEN consecutive times. I gave up after 8, but Mike kept saying, "Let's go to ten!" then "One more!" then "One more again!" then "Okay, if he beats us after 13 games, then we'll stop." So that's when we did the five and seven card games for two hours, then the guy sitting at the table behind us told us about Texas (which Blake already knew how to play), and we did that for a looooog time. Mike and I think that guy was trying to con us, because somehow we got money involved (which none of us actually had, so we had to scrounge). In the end, Mike was out of money, te other guy, Matt, had the most money, I was in second and Blake was last. So for whatever reason, we all put our money in te middle of the table and played a final game for it, winner takes all. There was close to $20 in there, and about $8 was mine, and the rest of it was Matt's. I was not okay with the possibility of losing all my money, because that was all the cash I had on me, but I wasn't sure I had a say in it, so I just kept quiet and prayed that I won. Blake won. That was good, too, because he gave me my 5 dollar bill back. The other $3 I had was just change, so I didn't care about that, I just wanted my damn 5. (Oh, and i case anyone wanted to know, once I got home I only slept for about five hours. So much for looking for a new job today. Maybe tomorrow.)

I have to get going, I think. I still have something to do on this here computer (laptop), and then there's the whole dinner at Mike's mom's house, so lots of love to everyone.

Amanda, in light of your current situation, this is for you.Collapse )

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[15 Nov 2003|01:18am]
Today is an important day.

Do you know why?

[11 Nov 2003|12:29am]
[ mood | happy ]

The best feeling in the world is not being angry.

I haven't felt this good in months.

I encourage all of you to let the past be the past. Put it all behind you and move on. Make peace with those who have wronged you, and those you have wronged. Forgive and forget. Let go of all grduges to anyone and anything.

Be happy.

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Listen Up! [21 Oct 2003|08:38pm]

STOP calling my boyfriend. He and I are in total agreement on the topic of you. Neither of us want to talk to you, see you, or have any contact with you whatsoever. You call him way too much, considering I've told you at least two or three times that everytime your name ("Bitch", it's stored as) appears on his caller ID, he presses "Ignore." When are you going to get the hint? Stop calling him. He does not want to talk to you.
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CODE [15 Oct 2003|12:29pm]
If anyone still has their LJ code and they're not saving it for anyone in particular, please let me know, because I have a friend who wants one. She's stuck at xanga right now, and she's getting no love over there. :( So let's try to find a code, bring her here so that people will love her, cos she's very lovable. :) Leave me a comment telling me if you have a code, please. It would be greatly appreciated.
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Alyssa = Yoko [14 Oct 2003|11:40pm]
You're breaking up friendships and the band (which YOU said is the most important thing, you fucking hypocrite). You're a waste of air. You need to back off anf leave all of us alone. ALL of us. I can't even believe that you want revenge so badly that you're willing to destroy everything those guys worked for. You will never amount to anything, because you're worthless. You're being used for information, just as you're using everyone possible for your own sick plots. Leave us alone, every last one of us. I hate wasting my time and energy on you, but you're obviously not getting it. GO THE HELL AWAY.
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Stuff [12 Oct 2003|11:56pm]
Public entry. For once. If you really want to know what's really been going on, you have to be logged in and one of my friends, otherwise you can't read it. :)

Work's going okay. (I saw Cate, Andrea and Mike's high school guidance counselor in the past 3 days.) I don't hate it, but I don't particularly like it. Until I figured out that my checks should be around $546 after taxes. So that should be nice. And I need a lot of stuff. I'm almost out of sampoo and conditioner, I need more toothpaste (I've been using my brothers', and it doesn't do a very good job), razors, hair dye (gotta fix this blinding blonde), contact solution and more eyeshadow. Yeah, that's right. My mother's so cheap, she won't even buy me life essentials (that's not counting hair dye and eyeshadow). So payday (in 2 weeks) will be sweet.

My hair is growing on me. I don't hate it anymore, but I'm not particularly fond of it. It'll be alright for 2 weeks, though.

Thursday I'm going out with Keri and Angelo to Shadowbox! Killer. I'm very excited. Mike's lending me the money to go, since I have a job now and I can pay him back. He said I also have to buy him a present, but I told him that if I don't have enough after I buy the things I need, it may have to wait until my second check. But I promised I would buy him something. I also have to buy myself some things. I have'nt bought any CDs in a year. I have 4 in mind. And 2 DVDs. But I have a coupon for those.

And the best news, Jim is back in the States!!!!! Carlo just told me that. For those who don't know, Jim was a friend of mine in high school. The first play I was in where I was the lead, he played my boyfriend (my first stage kiss -- aww). He graduated a year ahead of me, and he went and joined the Marines. Seven months ago, he was sent to Iraq. I didn't have any idea when he was coming back, or if he was already back, or even if he was still alive. But he is, and he's back, and I am very, very happy. I missed that kid.

Okay, I think that about wraps things up.
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Thank God [09 Oct 2003|03:34pm]
[ mood | jubilant ]

I have a job.

I didn't go to that restaurant yesterday, because I'd forgotten about a prior obligation, so I was planning on going today. But last night, when Mike and I were on our way to Wes's, my phone rang, and it was a manager from JoAnn Fabrics wanting me to come into today for an interview. So I went in, and he hired me right on the spot! I start training tomorrow. Very, very excited.

I talked to Keri about the whole publishing thing. She told me that if they said they wree interested without even reading any of my manuscript, just reading a summary, then that's a very good sign, because apparently they're pretty picky. Keri had to pay them to publish her book, so I'm guessing I'll have to do the same. But the good news is, now I'll be able to pay for it!!! Of course, that's not my number one priority. Now that I have a job, I need to get out of this house.

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Just woke up an hour or so ago... [07 Oct 2003|02:02pm]
[ mood | awake ]

<td bgcolor="#000000">Name:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">You will conquer:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">the United States of America (and make if illegal for Jay Leno and Conan Obrien to make fun of you).</td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Your title will be:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Tsar</td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">You will succeed by:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">A massive spam campaign.</td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Your Enforcers will be:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Batman villains (nobody is going to risk pissing off the Joker, Penguin, Mr. Freeze, the Scarecrow, Bane, the Clock King, Poison Ivy, Two-Face, the Riddler, and the rest of that endless freak parade).</td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Your first act as ruler:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">"I'm going to Disneyland!"</td></tr>
The World Is MINE! by Demonac
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<td bgcolor="#000000">Name</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Age</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Way</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">From a broken heart. </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Past Life</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Lion. </td></tr>
What is your past life? How did you die? by whisperinghope
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Bah! [07 Oct 2003|12:13am]
Once again, my computer decided to be a pain in the ass and crap out on me while I was in the middle of saving. Luckily, this time I lost less than a page as opposed to the last time when I lost 4 pages. That can easily be rewritten, seeing as how I just wrote it like, 20 minutes ago, and it's still pretty fresh in my mind. So I'm going to go do that. :)
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Dammit!!!! [04 Oct 2003|11:18pm]
[ mood | angry ]

So I haven't touched my novel for a while. Just haven't had the motivation to start writing again. So today I sat down at the computer and forced myself to write. And you know what? It was so easy. Once I got started, I couldn't stop. I got four pages written in a little over an hour (of course, that's including breaks). I had saved it at one point, and then when I finished I went to save it again. And then my computer froze. Not a big deal, I'd only written about two paragraphs since I'd last saved. I could always come up with something else. So I restarted my computer, and I went to open the document again. None of my new pages were there. Before I started to freak out, I saw that there was another document with the same name. So I tried to open that one. It won't open. It says that it can't open it, "the file may be in use by another application, the file format may not be supported by any of the installed converters, or the file may be corrupt." I don't know what the hell that means, but I want my damn pages. I can't believe that happened. I am utterly pissed off. That was some of my best work, and I can't figure out how to get it back. Bastard computers.

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Port Charles [03 Oct 2003|04:28pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Today they aired the final episode of one of my all-time favorite shows. And it's a soap opera, so there will be no reruns. I highly doubt the show will be released on DVD. The show was aired 5 days a week for six years. How many DVDs would that take? I'm sad. The ending sucked. I mean, it wouldn't have sucked if they were continuing the show, because then you'd see what happens, but they're not, so therefore it sucked. Kelly Monaco is on GH now. Brian Gaskill is on B&B. I just need to find out what Erin Hershey Presley's doing. Hopefully she'll be on GH, too. I heard that Erin and Brian Presley will be on GH, but it could just be a rumor.

I know, no one cars about this, but it really did make me sad. It's the end of an era.

Port Charles, 1997-2003.

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@$%&*#! [02 Oct 2003|01:35pm]
I hate my life and everything in it.
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Bored, so I took this from the good Alyssa (onlyindreamsxx) [02 Oct 2003|12:58am]
[ mood | bored ]

1) First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Barber.
2) Last thing you said: Good night.
3) Last song you sang: Hilary Duff, "So Yesterday."
4) Last person you hugged: Mike.
5) Last thing you laughed at: Mike and I were in the middle of a very awkward conversation, and I asked him a very awkeward question, and just as he opened his mouth to answer, his cell phone rang. I don't know, but I found that so highly amusing.
6) Last time you said I love you: A few hours ago when I dropped off Mike.
7) Last time you cried: A couple days ago.
8) What's in your CD player: Well, my CD player is packed up with the rest of my stuff, as it has been for 2 months now. But Mike's CD player, which is currently in my car, I have a burned CD.
9) What colour socks are you wearing: Black.
10) What's under your bed: Dust bunnies, my broken laptop, plastic bags.
11) What time did you wake up today: 1.
12) Current taste: pepsi. Mashed potatoes.
13) Current hair: Down. Kinda limp.
14) Current clothes: Black pants, blue shirt, black sweatshirt.
15) Current annoyance: This girl I know who's life mission is to make everyone around her miserable.
16) Current longing: Chocolate. I'm all out.
17) Current desktop picture: It's called Crystal, but it's just shades of blue, white and green.
18) Current worry: That I didn't really get that job, because for whatever reason my drug test came back positive, even though I don't do drugs.
19) Current hate: My mother.
20) Story behind your LJ username: It's pathetically detailed. Let's just say it involves Sheryl Crow and the Goo Goo Dolls. If you can figure it out, you get a prize!
21) Current favourite article of clothing: My black hat that I can't find.
22) Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex: Eyes. Particularly blue eyes.
23) Last CD that you bought: Blank ones yesterday.
24) Favourite place to be: Anywhere with Mike.
25) Least favourite place: Home.
26) Time you wake up in the morning: Depends on when I go to bed the night before.
27) If you could play an instrument, what would it be: Piano.
28) Favourite colour(s): Blue and white.
29) Do you believe in an afterlife: ????
30) How tall are you: 5'2"
31) Current favourite word/saying: Don't know, never thought about it.
32) Favourite book: Name & Address Withheld, Where the Heart Is
33) Favourite season: Summer
34) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: This guy I knew in 7th grade, John. Apparently he's incredibly successful now, on the verge of getting some great government job. I just want to talk to him and catch up. I used to have a huge crush on him, and then three years later he got a crush on me just from looking at a picture. We haven't seen each other since 1998.
35) Favourite day: Friday, I guess.
36) Where do you want to go: Paris.
37) What is your career going to be like: If I'm lucky, successful writer. If I'm really lucky, very successful actress.
38) How many kids do you want: 3
39) What kind of car will you have: I want a smaller car, compared to my boat.
40) Identify some things surrounding your computer: Cups, phone book, remote.
1) Last dream: Don't remember.
2) Last car ride: Coming home from Mike's.
3) last kiss: Couple hours ago.
4) Last good cry: I don't remember.
5) Last Missing Library Book: Hey, I returned that book. It was just a month late.
6) Last movie seen: Uhh...some Jackie Chan movie.
7) Last Book Read: Confessions of an Ex-Girlfriend. I encourage all girls to read it.
8) Last curse word uttered: I think it was "hell", but that's a tame curse word.
9) Last beverage drank: Iced tea.
10) Last Food consumed: Mashed potatoes.
11) Last Crush: Mike.
12) Last phone call: I called Keri earlier.
13) Last TV show watched: I'm watching Any Day Now.
14) Last Item Bought: Cigarettes.
15) Last time showered: Early this afternoon.
16) Last shoes worn: My big shoes with the stars.
17) Last CD played: Mix.
18) Last downloaded: Elton John, "Your Song".
19) Last annoyance: Spoiled, money-grubbing bitch.
20) Last disappointment: .......
21) Last soda drank: Coke
22) Last thing written: Like, typed, or what? Cos I just wrote that.
23) Last key used: Period.
24) Last word spoken: Ugh.
25) Last trip to the bathroom: A little while ago when I got home.
26) Last sleep: Last night.
27) Last IM: Katrina. On Noah's screen name.
30) Last weird encounter: Don't remember.
32) Last ice cream eaten: No idea.
33) Last time amused: Earlier.
34) Last time wanting: Wanting what?
36) Last time hugged: Earlier tonight.
37) Last time scolded: A week ago.
38) Last time resentful: A few days ago.
39) Last chair sat in: The one I'm currently vacating.
40) Last lipstick used: It's called, "Whatever."
41) Last underwear worn: White and blue.
42) Last bra worn: White.
43) Last shirt worn: This blue one.
44) Last class attended: Uh... ::thinks back to senior year:: Biology?
45) Where did it go? What?
46) Last time dancing: Too long ago.
47) Last poster looked at: No idea.
48) Last show attended: Don't remember.
49) Last webpage visited: Livejournal.
50) Last e-mail sent: I have no idea.

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Decisions, decisions [01 Oct 2003|01:32am]
[ mood | content ]

Okay, the reults are in via internet and word of mouth.

I'm going blonde. At least for a little while. I've had it blonde before, and I liked it, but I think I'll have a different shade of blonde this time (last time it was like a orangish-blonde). So if after a month or so I don't like it or I get sick of it, I'll either go red or back to my natural color. Seemed like the best solution. I probably won't do it until after Halloween, though. Depends on if I have the money for the costume I want costume or not. If I can't afford it, I'll dye my hair before (different costume that I already have).

Anyway. Went to Target today with Mike. I'm a complusive spender when I go in there, so I had to take Mike with me. I've set a rule for myself that I'm not allowed in that store without supervision. Bought some blank CDs (on sale for $10; Mike and I split the cost) and the movie Romeo + Juliet (on sale for $6). Then we went to his dad's house. I drove, cos Mike's car died (again). At his dad's house, we had dinner and watched TV. I only played with the baby a little bit, since Mike's been bitching about it (he says I spend too much time hanging out with his family and not enough time with him; he forgets that when I do spend time with him, he falls asleep, or he ignores me and draws, or he'll watch some stupid movie). She doesn't seem to be getting much bigger, but that's okay, because I think babies and puppies need to stay small forever. ;)

I'm so friggin hungry. There is next to nothing in my house to eat. I wanted a sandwich. No bread. That ruled out toast, too. Then I thought, "Bagels!" No bagels, but three things of cream cheese. No soup, no canned foods, no frozen dinners, no chips, almost no milk (not enough for cereal). I mean, we have nothing. ::sigh:: I think, I think, I might have enough syrup for some Eggos, but I'm not sure. I should check. I really am hungry. Despite the heartburn I'm feeling right now. Don't know why. Whatever.

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Help! [30 Sep 2003|03:50pm]
[ mood | indecisive ]

Okay, I'm taking an opinion survey, and I need everyone's help, whether you know me or not. :)

My hair has been its natural color for about a year now. And it's driving me crazy. I'm used to dying my hair every two months, and it's been 10. I can't take it anymore. I hate brown hair (on me, anyway). I only kept it this way simply because I wanted to prove to myself that I could, and also I couldn't afford it. But now I have money (God bless babysitting). And ten months is just as good as twelve. So the time has come to dye my hair again.

This is where everyone who happens to read this comes in. I need your opinion on the color to dye it. Blonde or red. Those are the only choices, because those are the only natural colors that I'm willing to put in my hair. I've been trying to decide for weeks now, and I can't. So I'm leaving it up to you guys. And I'm not going to update again until I get at least 5 opnions (majority rules), so go! Please?

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[29 Sep 2003|01:43am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

So, I suck at updating. Especially since I'm off restriction now that I have a job. Well, I haven't started yet, and I haven't actually heard anything, but they usually don't drug test you if they're not going to hire you, because then they lose money. So I'm just assuming.

Anyway, not much has been going on. Okay, that's not true. A lot of high school drama due to a particular high school drop out who will never accomplish anything. But whatever. Things will be better now that my friends and I no longer have to deal with this particular shit-talking loser.

Okay, well I'm at Katrina's (gotta babysit her little sister in the morning), and I think she wants to feed her neopets addiction (I already fed mine), so I am off, and I swear, I'll update again soon.

azurebelle4 got their Neopet at http://www.neopets.com

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Blah [25 Sep 2003|01:50pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Well, I got the job at CVS. I guess I just needed to bitch one more time. I shouldn't say I'm officially hired yet, though. Gotta pass my drug test. But you know, I don't do drugs, so I don't imagine it will come back positive. They're putting me in the pharmacy. I was so scared, because the guy who interviewed me was the same guy who interviewed Katrina and was a real dick to her. He was pretty nice to me, though. I guess it helped that my mother is friends with one of the managers. I really wish I could've gotten a job on my own without help from anyone, but I guess I should just be thankful that I actually have a job now.

The drug test was quite an experience. After the interview, the guy (Scott) told me I had 24 hours to have my drug test done. So I went home, drank a glass of water (since most drug tests are piss tests), got the directions to the place, drank another glass of water, and left. Missed one of my turns, so I had to turn around. Then I couldn't find the building I had to go to. But I finally got there. So I'm waiting, and I happen to be sitting next to the jug of water, so I had a glass, just in case. They finally call me in and hand me the cup to pee in. I go into the bathroom. Nothing. So I had to go back out into the waiting room and drink water until I could, cos apparently you're not allowed to leave until you piss in a cup. So I sat there and drank about four or five glasses of water and read a soap opera digest from 2001 (they needed to update their magazine selection). Finally I decided to just try again, even though I still didn't feel like I had to go. But I did! Got the test done, explained to the nurse why I cross my zeros (had to fill out some forms complete with the date, my phone number, etc.), then went home. And now I can't stop peeing. Damn water.

I'm technically still on computer restriction, but I have a job now and I've done chores for the past 2 weeks. So this is how I'm rewarding myself. ;)

Starving. Don't feel like making anything. Will anyway. I have to vacuum and do the dishes. I'll get around to it before I leave later when Mike gets off work.

Saw the baby yesterday. I love that little girl. She's too cute. I wish I had a working scanner so I could post a picture of her.

Okay, I think that's all. Later, kids.

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Good, but still kinda bad [22 Sep 2003|11:50pm]
[ mood | skeptical ]

I really hate that I can't get a job on my own, and that other people have to help me. I got an interview on Thursday, but my mother knows one of the managers. I'm guessing that'll probably work out, but I'm not counting on it. Every time I'm even remotely certain that I'll get a job, I never do. We'll see how it goes.

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DAMMIT!!!!!! [22 Sep 2003|02:03am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Why can't I get a job? Why is that so difficult? I've never been fired from any job, three of my old supervisors are people I know (and who love me), my references are good...WHY THE FUCK WON'T ANYONE HIRE ME???? Who do I have to sleep with to get a fucking interview? I'm more qualified than half the bimbo sluts that all places hire. And I swear to God, if Mike defends Alexis to me one more time, someone is going to die. Preferably her. Fucking slut. I don't believe for a second she's a virgin, just because she's religious. I'm religious, and I'm not a virgin. And you know what else? I don't go into job interviews looking like a two dollar hooker!!! Maybe I should start, though. She did it and she got a job. I mean, I'm really not broken up about not getting a job at Wal-Mart, but it's the principle of the matter. I go into the interview looking respectable and i'm fully qualified. She walks into the interview looking slutty (and according to Mike, she has a good job history, so she's probably fully qualified, too). We were both interviewed by guys. Her guy was middle aged, between probably 40 and 50. My guy was fairly young, probably not any older than 28. So why the hell would they choose her over me? I've figured it out. And I figured it out just by having one conversation with Mike:
* Alexis is prettier than me.
* Alexis has had several good jobs and has a perfect job history, where as my last two jobs were temp. jobs, so I only worked there for two months each. And there are a lot of gaps in my job history, due to the fact that I did extra curricular activities in high school, and I had the same problem over the summers that I have right now: no one will hire me.
* Alexis is smarter than me.
* Alexis is just all-around perfect.
Kinda makes you wonder why he's with me and not her. God damn slut. I swear, I want her dead. It was bad enough losing a job to Mike's ex, but now to have him defend her when I get upset over that fact...that's just harsh and hurtful.

I may get my pictures developed tomorrow. I hope I do. Depends on how much money I have in the bank.

::sigh:: I'm really, really angry about this whole job thing. I read that not working can cause depression and have a negative affect on your sex drive. I am definetely depressed, and I still don't really have a sex drive. And since I see no sign of getting a job any time soon (although I've turned in 2 applications last week and I'm turning in 3 more tomorrow), I see no sign of my depression and what have you being fixed any time soon.

Maybe I should seriously consider losing 20 lbs., getting breast implants and bleaching my hair to blonde. Maybe then I'll get a job.

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The baby [19 Sep 2003|01:31am]
[ mood | jubilant ]

Abigail Rebecca Troutman
Born September 18, 2003 in the morning (10 something)
6 lbs., 6 oz., 18 inches long
Daughter to Mike and Vanessa
Sister to Michael and Wade

She is the cutest thing I've ever seen in my entire life. I tried to feed her earlier, but she wouldn't take the bottle from me. Michael took her then and fed her, and she took the bottle from him. It was really cute. I think I may have been holding her at an odd angle. She was wrapped up in several blankets, so I couldn't really tell. Vanessa said that have to keep her wrapped up like that for (she thinks) the first 24 hours so she doesn't get cold. Hopefully next time I see her, if I get the chance to feed her, she'll let me. She was asleep the entire time I was there, but Vanessa said she has really dark blue eyes. She wore a hate the entire time, but I could see she had dark brown hair. Vanessa said she didn't have much hair, though. I told Vanessa that I'm going to make Abby really girly. Living in their house, Abby will become a huge tomboy, but she'll have me, and I'll be the one teaching her to put on makeup and paint her nails. I'l going to take her to get her ears peirced when she's thirteen, I'm going to dye her hair when she's 15, and take her to get her naval pierced when she's 18. I think I'm going to have to help her sneak out to go on dates, too. Michael's already said that she has to be a nun. She'll have two older brothers plus her dad. One of her brothers is 19 years older than she is, and her other one is 2 years older. And pretty much all guy have to deal with the wrath of the girlfriend's father. So that'll be fun once she gets older. But apparently kids are dating younger and younger. I didn't start dating until I was 15. But Michael and I went to his mom's yesterday, and she told us about how his other sister, Haley (who's almost 9), was asked out on a skating date by a boy in her class. WTF?? She's EIGHT. And then I guess one of her guy friends (and I don't know about you guys, but I didn't become friends with members of the opposite sex until I was 12) sat next to her in class one day, and other boy threatened to beat him up just for sitting next to her. Michael says she has to be a nun, too.

(The reason I'm calling him Michael is because I spent all day with his family, and everyone in his family calls him Michael, except his aunt Kay who calls him Junior. So I'm just in the habit right now.)

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I think it's working... [18 Sep 2003|01:25pm]
[ mood | content ]

I think I'll be back to roaming the internet world by Monday. I've been doing my chores that I set for myself. Except last night I didn't do the dishes. Too tired. So I left my mom a note and said, "Leave the dishes. I'll get them in the morning." Then she added on to the note, asking me to do something else, and ended it with, "Thanks for all the work you've done! Love, Mom."

Now, you may not think that's anything to look into. But trust me, it is. She never thanks me for anything, ever, and when she leaves me notes commanding that I do things, she either doesn't sign them, or just signs them "Mom". So the fact that she did all that is making me think that I'm getting to her.

Okay, that's all I really wanted to say. I have to take a shower and eat. Mike's off work at 4, and then we're going to the hospital to visit his new baby sister! I'm very excited.

Hey, since we're making a stop at the hospital, maybe we should stop by jail too, and visit Wes. Although I don't know where the work center is. Oh, and for those who don't know, his court date is tomorrow. I talked to Chris (military) yesterday, and he told me the entire story of what happened, so I have the indie information if you were curious.

Okay, that's really all.

2 realized she doesn't cry| over bitches on boats

I beat the system!! [15 Sep 2003|11:56pm]
[ mood | devious ]

Except not really. KC left the desktop up rather than turning off the computer, so now that everyone is asleep, I have the computer to myself. Mwahahaha!

I talked to my mother today, and I'm going to get my computer privledges back, but I have to do several weeks of chores, first. Cos apparently they can ground me. Whatever. They let me do my own chore chart. Three chores a day, five days a week. And once I get a job, I won't have to worry about them anymore. And I'm pretty sure they'll cave by Monday. If not, I can go a few weeks of using Matt's computer when he's at school and my parents are at work. Not a big deal. I shouldn't be so relyant on computers in the first place. The only thing that really bothers me is that now I can't write. My laptop is broken, so I can only write on the actual computer. Damn. Oh, well, life goes on, and I'm getting a new laptop in November anyway. Hopefully I can get an internet card or something, then I won't have to use this computer, anyway.

Okay, that's all. I have to go feed my addiction (neopets).

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A whole new level of psychotic [14 Sep 2003|12:27am]
[ mood | hurt ]

Well, my mother had my stepdad block the computer so I can't use it anymore. I'm on my brother's right now. So chances are, updates will be rare. I'm just letting everyone know I didn't drop off the planet. Apparently, my mother just assumed that I would know she wanted me to do the dishes. I didn't know that, because there was no note and she didn't tell me. So for revenge, she had KC put up one of those things on the computer where you need a pssword to get to the desktop. Noah told me to just press Escape and it would pass over that, but it didn't work. So I'll only be able to to update when my psycho mother isn't home and Matt lets me use his computer. Oh yeah, she's THAT crazy.

I've been keeping my dad updated with how crazy she's been getting, and now he's just flat out pissed off that the bitch dares to treat me this way. So he's calling her tomorrow to try to get her to start being nicer to me. Hopefully that'll work out, but I have a feeling it will just makes things worse.

Okay, that's all. Later, kids.

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[12 Sep 2003|02:25pm]
I'm going to be a trendwhore, like Carlo.

Sum me up in one word.

And also like Carlo, I'm requesting that you be creative.
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